12 days until my Birthday

This has been a reminder that even in a pandemic, war, or Apocalyptic moments; I have a birthday.  So, it should be celebrated. It should be broadcasted and treated with the same appreciation as money.

I have grown numb to fact that my birthday is just another day. It seems time and societal norms have made me feel that my birthday is a tolerance. The idea of the spotlight being pointed at me.  I survived this far but do I enjoyed the ride?

My birthday is not only about me, it is about my tribe who support me. It about the doctors who helped me enter this world. My mother, father, brother, stepfathers,  stepmothers, aunts, uncles, cousins, grandfathers and grandmothers who are my family.  My friends that have supported me. My enemies who have challenged me. My previous jobs that taught me the work ethic.  My business that taught me my worth.

My birthday is a celebration to remind me that I didn’t do this alone.  They helped CharRon be CharRon.

So Thank you and cheers to them. Happy birthday to me.

May Day 2020

I am excited that May is here but Co-vid has made me look at my days I like.

Star Wars Day

May the fourth be with you all. I am shock how the day is flowing and the night is creeping upon us. Since, I would normally celebrate hump day today, it feels exciting to have extra reason to celebrate. Today is Star Wars Day. So, now, you and your kids can wear your Star Wars apparel without celebrating halloween or conventions. It makes me wonder how many bosses will dress like Darth Vader to work and walk around in the office halls. Talk about superiority complex.

Cinco de Mayo

I really need to understand the history of Cinco de Mayo because it is not celebrated the right way. Americans misunderstanding has become a stereotypical drinking celebration like St. Patrick day.

Mother’s Day

Mother’s day is upon us. I find it hard to celebrate it since I live so far from my mother. But I do have children and their mothers are wonderful in their own right. So, I have to pay attention to them and make it enjoyable.


Happy Star Wars Day, everybody! May the fourth be with you. You think with that gesture it would signal someone not to present a Vulcan salute. But, this is Star wars day: there will be a lot of Carrie Fisher tributes, Star Wars attire are worn in interesting places (I definitely have my eye on a Darth Vader Tie), plus Stars themed memes, joke, art, and videos. This is the day when my daughter goes to school in her Darth Vader costume and her parents are dressed up as her Storm Troopers. We, definitely, left an impression on her teacher when she enter the classroom. So, how do you celebrate?

Here are some Stars Wars Tweet Poem below:

39’s Last words

I turned 40 in December. Hooray, 22 years as an adult.  Since, this is my new decade mark, my 39 year old self left me an audio recording. He encourage me that I need to push forward and take care of some loopholes that he wasn’t able to complete.

Here are a few ideas:

  • Take risks.
  • Artists have problems
  • Enjoy your 40s
  • Travel more.
  • Make Christmas enjoyable
  • Eat better
  • Do not conform
  • Expand on poetry

Take Risk

I have never thought that my age would play a big role to my insecurity. But, I have become aware of repeated financial and economical disasters that have drop me back to square two. Plus, Living with a Loner’s mentality has let me accept solitude than a relationship. I need to take more changes with my life because playing it safe is not giving me satisfaction .

Artists have problems

Many friends and associates  have problems greater than mine. But I am surprise Why? I never assumed what problems are really out there.  My childhood had flaws.  Hell, my unique name still bothers me. But, people faced some harsh decisions.  I have admiration for them.

No Conformity

I tried to conform to what society has foretold my generation for so long. Get good grade, graduate college, get a Job, work fatefully, get married, have a family, get a house, pay your taxes and insurance, and enjoy retirement. None of these action happen smoothly.

But I went down an alternate route:

I went to the military then community college and university(which took 7 years to graduate), I work retail and warehouse jobs to rent, I work fatefully until jobs fired me several times, I have never been married but I have kids from two lovely women, never own a house, and have been punish by taxes and insurance increases.

I have spent most of my life with this concept that does not work for me. Even when I saw different avenues, I was reminded that I should follow the traditional way. If you research several accomplished people, you will find out that they didn’t follow the concept. So why are we still telling people that traditional works?

Live better

Do ever think that this could be your final year? I have started to become more aware of my mortality. I don’t want to die but I have no control to the decision. So do you feel satisfied? Is your work done? Or do you fear nothing is finished or ready? I have read and listen to many philosophers discuss the end game. We all know it is coming yet we still view it as a distance future. Well, this is not true. So what are you not doing that should be done?


My life reflection has good and bad events but some those events were necessary  for the next one to happen.  Living with notion gives me lukewarm feelings but humans are so active to search for the negative that the positive never feels incredible.  I have family and friends that view me as a young adult still growing up or gritty veteran.  In short, my 40s are new shoes for me.  So, I  better get comfortable in them because I will be in them for awhile.